Wednesday, December 3, 2008
{ 10:00 AM }
past few weeks have been tough for me.
school's getting more boring,
some faci (namely PHP) is being an ass as usual,
people skipping/cutting class.
me having the urge to do the same.
just that no one to accompany me with.
i tell myself 1 more wk of school
then 3 wks of holiday.
then back to 3 wks of school
and finally i will end my year 2.
time sure flies when you are having fun.
i took a long route to be where i am today.
and im proud of my route,
i get to see what the outside world was like
to see how the world is at times conquered by evil human beings.
thinking only about themselves.
yeah, at times i admit
im selfish, im mean, im a bitch.
that is want you get out of me when you piss me off.
that side of me i dont like to be.
but people just dont understand.
they just dont get how you feel
i may look as if im okay
but the matter of the fact is that i'm not.
I AM NOT OKAY.
i dont think i will be okay anytime soon.
history really is repeating itself.
just one year ago this time of the year
it happen the same thing happen.
i dnt like to whine about the past.
it brings back memories which i want to forget.
my 20th birthday is coming soon,
and like last year
im going to be crushed again.
like last year i am going to be stood up again.
like last year i dont expect anything much to happen
but unlike last year, i will not be crying my heart out for a guy.
that is a promise to myself.
the sun is out, i think im going down for a dip in the pool.
